sometimes
sometimes you have to do what hurts you the most to make someone else happy. sometimes you have to make the worse decision to have the better outcome, and sometimes you just need to not think about it, and go...
i've been around this a million times, whether or not i should stop things with caitlin. whether or not i should break away from a friendship i've spent so long building, or if i should try to salvage what is left of it. i've had so many mixed responses, nothing helps. alot of people say to keep it alive, but at the same time, people are telling me to end it too. i don't know.
i think i'm just gonna tiptoe around the situation, adn hope i don't set off any mines, and maybe it'll be okay. i don't ever have a set plan when it comes to what to do with my life, i always am just a kinda live by the seat of your pants kinda guy. i take each day one day at a time, and live it like it is my last. but this time i dont' know if i can do that. i don't know if i can test this day by day. i think i have to make a decision soon. and i don't know if i'm capable of that. i think that in the end, i might have to hurt the person i love the most, so that she may be happier in the end... i wish i knew the answer to this question... i wish things were more simple... at the same time, i just wish i was alone, alone like i used to be, with nobody to care about me, so that things like this wouldn't happen...
on another note, i hung out with emily today. totally awesome. she won at mini-golf, what a surprise... i suck... and then we went to her houes and played shrek operation with her mom and older brother. we were laughing so much we were crying... wow. then we watched shrek two, and just cuddled the whole time. i really like her. she is so amazing. she does martial arts, dances, sings, plays piano, skateboards, surfs, goes whitewater rafting, is just amazing in general. it's so cool... i like her alot, and i'm interested in seeing how thigns go. yay...
i'm out for right now...
"once you leave neverland, you forget how to fly..."
i've been around this a million times, whether or not i should stop things with caitlin. whether or not i should break away from a friendship i've spent so long building, or if i should try to salvage what is left of it. i've had so many mixed responses, nothing helps. alot of people say to keep it alive, but at the same time, people are telling me to end it too. i don't know.
i think i'm just gonna tiptoe around the situation, adn hope i don't set off any mines, and maybe it'll be okay. i don't ever have a set plan when it comes to what to do with my life, i always am just a kinda live by the seat of your pants kinda guy. i take each day one day at a time, and live it like it is my last. but this time i dont' know if i can do that. i don't know if i can test this day by day. i think i have to make a decision soon. and i don't know if i'm capable of that. i think that in the end, i might have to hurt the person i love the most, so that she may be happier in the end... i wish i knew the answer to this question... i wish things were more simple... at the same time, i just wish i was alone, alone like i used to be, with nobody to care about me, so that things like this wouldn't happen...
on another note, i hung out with emily today. totally awesome. she won at mini-golf, what a surprise... i suck... and then we went to her houes and played shrek operation with her mom and older brother. we were laughing so much we were crying... wow. then we watched shrek two, and just cuddled the whole time. i really like her. she is so amazing. she does martial arts, dances, sings, plays piano, skateboards, surfs, goes whitewater rafting, is just amazing in general. it's so cool... i like her alot, and i'm interested in seeing how thigns go. yay...
i'm out for right now...
"once you leave neverland, you forget how to fly..."
posted by p03tic_tr4g3dy at 7:54 PM
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