indecision, indecision...

sometimes i wish people would just tell you how they felt without caring about how you will see them, about how it will affect you... i wish people were more up front... sometiems that hurts more than being alone...

sometimes i wish that i could change things, to make it easier for everyone involved, and sometimes i just wish... i just wish for everything...

i have a song in the works right now, but i think i'm gonna scrap it... i don't know anymore, it's not any good, maybe i'lll just stop writing altogether. i had some connections at a chocolate maker and was gonna get together and make this awesome christmas present for my friend, but i don't know if i want to do that anymore, i don't know anything anymore....

indecision is crazy, it is probably the most painful feeling in the world, to feel like you're being pulled around in these directions, only to be let go in an unfamiliar place with more worries than u started with. sometimes i wish i could make decisions for people, soemtimes i wish i could just take care of everything in one fell swoop and be done with it...

but it can't and won't be this way, so now i'm left alone and wanting, and with that, confusion and more is beginnning to set in... maybe i should just end this all, right now, and be done with it...

on a lighter note, i'm gonna be getting 2 new speakers dirt cheap, as well as my 2 old broken ones repaired, so i'll have 4 subs in my car... yay... plus i might be getting rims, so we'll see...

i'm feeling shitty right now, so i'll post more later

"once you leave neverland, you forget how to fly..."