tomorrow is another day...
tomorrow is another day, but today has just begun, and yesterday seems so far away... i can't help but think back to the day courtney came over, which was friday... she just showed up at my doorstep, and we had a talk... i think she just wanted to have someone to talk to, and i guess i fit the job description... oh well, i mean, i don't think i'll complain about it, i'm just glad she did it... hopefully one day, i'll get to have a real conversation with her, and get all of my feelings out on the table...
i learned that she is moving to talahassee with her b/f... great for her, whoop de frickin doo.... apparantly her family isn't too keen on it, and they are making it very apparant.... sometimes i wonder what would have happened if we had stayed together. like would things be smoother, or would we both be better off... lol, oh well, yesterday will never come again, so i guess i should stop living in the past....
lol i think i fell in love the other night. but of course, i won't do anything about it... time to explain, huh? okay, well, i went out with some friends the other night, and she came with us. during the car ride there, it was uncannily easy to talk to her, and it was amazingly awesome the vibes i was getting from her... lol. i found out she plays paintball, along with other guyish things, which is the most massive turn on ever. lol and to top all that off, she's incredibly beautiful. it's insane... like all night, i couldn't take my eyes off of her. haha, an emo kid with emo dreams. of course i won't pursue anything, one-cuz she's way way WAY outta my league, and two, she's way outta my league... besides, i don't feel like anyone is attracted to me, so i guess i'll just play it safe and stay alone... it's way easier that way, if it didn't suck so much.
on another note, i get my tonsils out tomorrow... horray... i'm supposed to lose like 10-15 lbs, maybe god will smile upon me and make me lose more? i'm just really psyched cuz i can start to work out and skate again, not to mention play paintball without folley, or throwing up.... these things have been a bitch... i'm supposed to be down and out for 10 days, we'll see about that.. i'll probably be ending up going to school again within 3 days, hopefully. i can't miss school.... plus, i can't miss work either, i need the dinero like massively bad. i'll die without it... am i nervous about the surgery? hellz no... i just hope i don't have to get naked... heh. but yeah, i'm not nervous, i'm happy, the faster these things get out, the faster i can start toning up my body... i feel so fat lately it's insane... maybe that'lll change sooon.... who knows...
oh well, we'll see, now won't we?
"once you leave neverland, you forget how to fly..."
i learned that she is moving to talahassee with her b/f... great for her, whoop de frickin doo.... apparantly her family isn't too keen on it, and they are making it very apparant.... sometimes i wonder what would have happened if we had stayed together. like would things be smoother, or would we both be better off... lol, oh well, yesterday will never come again, so i guess i should stop living in the past....
lol i think i fell in love the other night. but of course, i won't do anything about it... time to explain, huh? okay, well, i went out with some friends the other night, and she came with us. during the car ride there, it was uncannily easy to talk to her, and it was amazingly awesome the vibes i was getting from her... lol. i found out she plays paintball, along with other guyish things, which is the most massive turn on ever. lol and to top all that off, she's incredibly beautiful. it's insane... like all night, i couldn't take my eyes off of her. haha, an emo kid with emo dreams. of course i won't pursue anything, one-cuz she's way way WAY outta my league, and two, she's way outta my league... besides, i don't feel like anyone is attracted to me, so i guess i'll just play it safe and stay alone... it's way easier that way, if it didn't suck so much.
on another note, i get my tonsils out tomorrow... horray... i'm supposed to lose like 10-15 lbs, maybe god will smile upon me and make me lose more? i'm just really psyched cuz i can start to work out and skate again, not to mention play paintball without folley, or throwing up.... these things have been a bitch... i'm supposed to be down and out for 10 days, we'll see about that.. i'll probably be ending up going to school again within 3 days, hopefully. i can't miss school.... plus, i can't miss work either, i need the dinero like massively bad. i'll die without it... am i nervous about the surgery? hellz no... i just hope i don't have to get naked... heh. but yeah, i'm not nervous, i'm happy, the faster these things get out, the faster i can start toning up my body... i feel so fat lately it's insane... maybe that'lll change sooon.... who knows...
oh well, we'll see, now won't we?
"once you leave neverland, you forget how to fly..."
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