Sunday, August 29, 2004

flying on broken thoughts

i am so confused right now.... again. lol oh well, i guess that's a usual thing with me nowadays...

i played paintball last night... alot, about 5 hrs worth, from 7-12... got the marks to prove it... the one mark that i didn't get, thank god, but can say happened is the shooting of my nether regions... that hurt really bad.. lol i was on the ground for like 2 minutes in the middle of that damn game... after i finally hobbled off, the culprit apologized multiple times, and i became near-immortalized on the field... "hey, aren't u the guy that got shot in the nuts? really? man, i would never be able to get up after that one... u got some balls dude" yeah, unfortunately they were shot off... lol oh well, i'm all better now... paintball was hella fun, and will definately fill my void for right now, until the right gal comes along...

work today sucked, i got home at 1.30 from paintball... totally drained, and had to wake up at 7 to go to work... suxor! oh well, i only messed up a coupla times, although i'm dead... mood today is depressed/stoked/confusion. i guess... i'm sad cuz i'm alone, but i'm stoked cuz i'm playing and hanging out with my friends more... confused cuz of courtney, of course... this girl, i don't know what her effect over me is, but only one other girl i know of has that effect...

i try to say i don't give a shit about her, courtney that is, but no matter what, i find myself wondering how she is.... if she 's happy... why is that? oh well, maybe i'm just a big stupid.. hopefully i'll hook up with some girls sometime soon, it's lonely out here all alone and stuff... haha... but anyways, i guess i should focus on school more, but i can honestly say that i'm all schooled out... for shizzle or some shit...

paintball all the way baby! i'm gonna take that shit out, and live it up... it is an awesome game that will tire u out so fast.... total adrenaline.... wow... anyways, this emo kid's gotta go out.. i guess, got shiza to do... or something...

later guys, rock out with ur cock out! and don't forget to send flowers! or some shit...

"once you leave neverland, you forget how to fly"

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